restlessness

it's my fourth day returning to full time work hours and it appears that they are taking their toll already. i'm tired. but i sleep early. and because i sleep early, i'm on a different schedule to everyone else. so then it's like i've died again. kind of enjoying the solitude, but at the same time, it feels like i'm drifting aimlessly in a big, big ocean. it's a nice, relaxing feeling until you realise it's a big, big ocean and you're all alone in it. hopefully, once my body syncs back to working mode, i'll be able to live a little bit outside of work. tonight i ate dinner in my kitchen, even though i was eating by myself, because i needed time away from my computer. i kind of feel like driving far far away and sitting on a deserted beach, just watching the sunset. it makes me wonder how far i can go before i run out of petrol...

 

donna.